Just need to empty the head.....

I'm sitting here....well laying. (Gotta love laptops.) It's 10:15 and I should have at least tried to fall asleep 2 hours ago. But I cannot seem to find peace with my thoughts.

It sucks being like this. I cannot seem to ever fall asleep at night unless I am able to process all of the "junk" in my head...and trust me, there is a TON of junk there. Ugh.

What am I doing? Seriously, I turn 31 next Sunday, and what in the world have I done with my life? I have been give a load of gifts and opportunity, and I have done absolutly nothing with them. Yeah, I have some awesome people in my life, but seriously, how many of them have I let "in", I mean all the way in to know the me, the deep dark me, the me that...well...I have yet to allow anyone to know. Shoot, I don't have, and haven't had a girlfriend in FOREVER!!!!!! I hate my job, I'm stepping down from the few things that acutally bring joy to me......what am I doing?

gah....I cant even write out my frustrations in words....

peace out.

K.I.S.S.

There is a football coach I have coached for that had a simple outlook on things. It was the K.I.S.S. principle, K.I.S.S. meaning keep it simple stupid. I was thinking about it the other day, and all too often we over complicate things in our humanity. Yes, there are things that come up that we can and do look to the Bible for answers. It is also very wise to seek out wise council. But, just as everything else in life, we tend to over complicate Christianity. Trying to keep it simple I boiled things down to a handful of verses most of us have heard, and simply try to live my life by them as often as possible. Here they are:

"for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,"
Romans 3:23

"For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Romans 6:23

"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life. For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through Him."
John 3:16-17

"My little children, I am writing these things to you so that you may not sin and if anyone sins, we have an Advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous; and He Himself is the propitiation for our sins; and not for ours only, but also for those of the whole world."
1 John 2:1-2

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."
Proverbs 3:5-6

"And He said to him, " 'YOU SHALL LOVE THE LORD YOUR GOD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, AND WITH ALL YOUR SOUL, AND WITH ALL YOUR MIND.' "This is the great and foremost commandment. "The second is like it, 'YOU SHALL LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF.' "On these two commandments depend the whole Law and the Prophets."
Matthew 22:37-40

"And Jesus came up and spoke to them, saying, "All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. "Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age."
Matthew 28:18-20

Wow....it's been a while

I havent posted on here in 4 years....WOW have things changed. A new title, a new outlook on life, a new set of ramlbings. Hopefully I will keep this up better then I did before. Here goes nothing....

I'm a complete idiot.....

I didn't even realize that there was comments left on my last two blogs......Go figure......Oh well, I am unfortunately the largest moron in the world.....Not only in the fact I am a moron, but also the fact that I am large.....Right...So that's cool.....

but anyway, back the venting, or the lack there of......

I had a fellow at work the other day say the funniest thing in the world.....Well....It was to me it least......

So I walk into the receiving area of our store, and I am singing away.....I don't even remember what song it was....And I hear...."What makes you think you can sing......Man, I liked him better when he had low self esteem...."

I about fell over laughing....So this came from a friend, and I tell you what.....I cant get over it, and don't know why.....hmmm.......I guess you can just read my previous blogs and see that I am nuts, and singing out loud during store hours, has not been my cup of tea as of late......Oh and must I remind you all, I am pretty much tone deaf, and I shatter glasses when I sing....And not in a good way......:P

Well....

i know this blog gets absolutly now views but its a good place for me to vent.......how is it that the person i love the most in the world, or more that i have the highest capacity to grow to love, barely knows i exist.....heck i dont even know her.....heck she might not even know me....what is this mad mad mad mad world about.......hmm.....think about that one.....

More

Am I happy with my life? Yes
Am I content with it? Sort of
Do I want more? YES
There is a fine line between being happy, and being content. I have realized that I have been afforded opportunities in my life that many do not. And I should be, and am grateful for that. But, that is exactly what drives me to want more. If I seem unappreciative, well I am not. It’s that I realize I have a lot, I realize I have potential for greatness, and I feel that I owe it to everyone to be more. A better son, a better brother, a better employee, a better friend.
Is there more for me? Yes
Do I have the drive to achieve it? I think so
Will I achieve more? We’ll see
It should be fun.

Good song lyrics...

"Something More"
Sugarland


Monday, hard to wake up
Fill my coffee cup, I'm out the door
Yeah, the freeway's standing still today
It's gonna make me late, and thats for sure
I'm running out of gas and out of time
Never gonna make it there by nine
Chorus:
There's gotta be something more
Gotta be more than this
I need a little less hard time
I need a little more bliss
I'm gonna take my chances
Taking a chance I might
Find what I'm looking for
There's gotta be something more
Five years and there's no doubt
That I'm burnt out, I've had enough
So now boss man, here's my two weeks
I'll make it short and sweet, so listen up
I could work my life away, but why?
I got things to do before die
Repeat Chorus
Some believe in destiny, and some believe in fate
I believe that happiness is something we create
You best belive that I'm not gonna wait
'Cause there's gotta be something more
I get home 7:30 the house is dirt, but it can wait
Yeah, 'cause right now I need some downtime
To drink some red wine and celebrate
Armageddon could be knocking at my door
but I ain't gonna answer thats for sure.
There's gotta be something more!