I'm sitting here....well laying. (Gotta love laptops.) It's 10:15 and I should have at least tried to fall asleep 2 hours ago. But I cannot seem to find peace with my thoughts.
It sucks being like this. I cannot seem to ever fall asleep at night unless I am able to process all of the "junk" in my head...and trust me, there is a TON of junk there. Ugh.
What am I doing? Seriously, I turn 31 next Sunday, and what in the world have I done with my life? I have been give a load of gifts and opportunity, and I have done absolutly nothing with them. Yeah, I have some awesome people in my life, but seriously, how many of them have I let "in", I mean all the way in to know the me, the deep dark me, the me that...well...I have yet to allow anyone to know. Shoot, I don't have, and haven't had a girlfriend in FOREVER!!!!!! I hate my job, I'm stepping down from the few things that acutally bring joy to me......what am I doing?
gah....I cant even write out my frustrations in words....
peace out.
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